Because of our, Christians, connection to Christ, we must sometimes endure what we consider hard times.  Many of these times, we are only having our character tested to make us better.  Other times our character is tested to see what is in us, to see if our speech lines up with our walk.

Each day I come to work there is a new test that I face.  Sometimes I just don’t want to show up to work at all, but I must do it.  I want to just quit but there is no other job in my sight at the moment.  I take each attack on my team as a personal one.

Today I was listening to a song by Donald Lawrence called These Nails and it resounded in my soul.  It sort of reminded me that the call to the cross is what holds me accountable for my actions.  I can’t just respond to the darts that are thrown daily.  I can’t repay evil for evil.  Just thinking of this makes me have conflicting emotions.  In my flesh I want to react, but my spirit wants me to act.

I know that I am not the only one who faces situations like this in their life, but I am glad that I am able to see myself in al this.  My earnest prayer is that God will continue to show me myself and that I respond in ways that are pleasing to Him and Him only.  That I bring no negative attention to the walk with Christ that so many of us are walking.